Welcome to the Garden

Welcome Magic Makers!

As my inaugural blog post I want to thank you for being here with me and give you a brief tour of the Garden of my mind to which you have entered. Overgrown - wild- abundant-sustaining-dangerous.

My intention with this space is to share my thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears and lived experience in hopes of weaving the silken threads of my Self into the cosmic web of others out there who-against all odds and in a spectacular display of revolutionary delusion- dare to rebuke the world we have been told to exist in and instead create the world we want to live in.

So please allow me to introduce myself as succinctly and holistically as I can so you can orient yourself to my worldview, and get a taste of what you might expect to encounter in this Garden of my Mind.

I am a Fat, Femme, Queer, Neurodiverse Artist, and Abolitionist on a journey of self actualization, deconstruction and liberation. I am passionate about mental health and how curiosity and kindness can transform us individually, interpersonally, and as a community. I am an incredibly sensitive person and experience the world around me in deep and often overwhelming levels. My early life was marked by chronic traumas that, in cahoots with my innate, intense sensitivity, led me to over two decades of alcohol and drug abuse. It has been over five years now since I have consumed alcohol or hard drugs, which I have only been able to achieve since finding my own, non dogmatic approach to recovery.

This leads me to an important ethos which you may find liberating, or possibly offensive, which grows here in my ethereal flower bed of thought. I do not ascribe to dogma in any form. This isn’t to say that those for whom dogmatic practices work are wrong or that I am passing judgment on them- (that would one rather dogmatic of me)-but rather a declaration for my Self and the path that I have found works for me to move through the world most skillfully and in alignment my values. Adopting a non dogmatic approach to my live has allowed me to loosen the reigns of black and white thinking, to allow room for curiosity, for difference and disability, and to create radical acceptance and transformative growth for my Self and Others. It is my belief that, generally, Dogmatic thoughts, approaches and structures tend to divide, exile, and harm those who do no fit neatly into the boxes set before them.

I am choosing to show up imperfectly here. I am choosing to be seen and heard and that means that I will, on occasion, certainly be seen and heard being wrong. No one is immune to wrong thought, no one is always right. I do not think I am alone, in fact I believe many of us fear being wrong publicly. As a society and vastly as individuals we do not have good models of repair to look to when we make mistakes, when we cause harm, when we are wrong. The Internet can act as an expeditor of the cruelest commentary for our outer critics and the fear of being rejected is very real. But I am here despite the fear, and though I wish I could move through this world perfectly, without causing harm, I know that is simply not possible. So I invite you to call me in when I am wrong, to hold me accountable and help guide me back from misifnormation and wrong thought as being given the opportunity to grow is one of the greatest gifts we can offer One and Other.

I am grateful to be here, and I am grateful to You for being here too- both with me in this digital space and with me in this brilliantly beautiful, brutal, world.

Keep Making your Magic. Keep Taking up Space.

I love you.

Queerly and Sincerely-

Maggie